Friday, September 30, 2016


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This God--His way is perfect; the word of the Lord proves true; He is a shield for all those who take refuge in Him. Psalm 18:30

What a joyful surprise to learn we were expecting an Easter baby (little Jellybean until we know the baby's gender)! After our two miscarriages, we always hold our breath for the first several weeks. Morning sickness set in strong at five weeks, and at six weeks we saw that beautiful heartbeat. At our nine week ultrasound we still saw that tiny heart beating strong, but our doctor gave us some heartbreaking news that was confirmed with a visit to a specialist this week. For reasons unknown to us and the medical people, but not unknown to God, the baby's brain has not formed properly. Baby's condition is not the "classic" anencephaly, but is similar. The specialist called it cranio something or other. But in medical terms it means "incompatible with life." Both my regular ob and the specialist told us that while a pregnancy loss is always possible at any stage, typically the pregnancy proceeds normally and to term, but our baby is expected to live only a few minutes to a couple of days, if baby survives the birth. Of course we are heartbroken. There really aren't any words.

Would you pray with us? Many of you already know our news and have been praying with us, and we are so thankful for you. Our family and friends and sweet church community loves us so well, and they are showing us what it means to bear one another's burdens. Pray for peace and comfort and wisdom as we seek to celebrate life yet plan for death. And pray for wisdom when we talk with our children in the next few weeks. They do not know anything about the pregnancy yet. I'm sure I'll have many more thoughts to share later. We know that God has always been faithful, and He will be again.

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

First Stitches

Last week Sophie hit her head on something in the bathroom. Time for her ER visit and stitches. According to Daddy, she just sat there and let them stitch it up. She's our brave and stoic child! Now they are almost healed. Hoping she won't have much of a scar.

Other than that, we're trucking along with school and our fall activities. Next month I will try to get back on a more frequent blogging schedule.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

First Day of School 2016

We had a great first day, despite our schoolroom/playroom floor still being under construction (school is happening mostly in the dining room right now) and Mama having a cold. We plan to have lots of fun and enjoy our kindergarten and preschool year!

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Tuesday, August 30, 2016

Nora: 19 months

19 months yesterday!

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Nora thinks she can definitely do everything her older siblings can. She is able to do a lot of it! She is speaking more and more in sentences, has her favorite books (Freight Train and Goodnight Moon), and knows what the tv remote is for (considering the limited use that thing gets around here, I'm impressed). She loves to eat and holds up her plate for more after every meal and snack. She is nursing just at bedtime and we plan to wean this month. She is starting to get interested in the potty so maybe we will potty train soon after her birthday...we will see. We love this sweet girl and her big personality!

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

A few summer pictures

I know it has been a little quiet on here the past few weeks. We are enjoying the last of summer and getting ready to start school soon. Jacob has passed his swim test and is so proud, and the older girls are about to begin ballet classes. Lots of reading going on, as usual, and some sensory play (aka mess-making) and lots and lots of games the kids make up. Happy end of summer to you!

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Jacob and Daddy: the boys have to stick together!
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Tuesday, August 16, 2016

Psalm 33:20-22

Our soul waits for the Lord;
He is our help and our shield.
For our heart is glad in Him,
because we trust in His holy name.
Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us,
even as we hope in you.

Friday, August 12, 2016

Recent Reads

Been doing lots of reading myself lately. Two notable books:

Hope Heals, by Katherine and Jay Wolf
Beautiful true story of how Katherine and Jay and their family survived a stroke that should have left Katherine dead, rebuilt their life, and learned to trust God fully as an anchor for the soul even in times of suffering and desperation.

Sweetening the Pill: Or How We Got Hooked on Hormonal Birth Control, by Holly Grigg-Spall
This book has been on my list for a while. I have lots of thoughts/opinions about birth control and this was an interesting read by a woman I likely have nothing in common with except our desire to not use the Pill (including the ring, patch, implant, Depo-Provera, and Mirena). My favorite quote: "Neither pregnancy nor fertility should be viewed as an illness that requires treatment with pharmaceuticals or surgery" (p. 74). The author made this point over and over again. Why do millions of healthy women take a Pill every day for 20+ years of their life, a Pill that impacts every part of your body (not just your reproductive system)? Hormones are not bad. Cycles are not bad. I don't think Ms Grigg-Spall shares my spiritual views, but as a Christian I know that my body is working just as God designed it. Fertility is not a disease and there are plenty of non-hormonal birth control options that most doctors do not offer as options to their patients, they just push the Pill because that is what you do. IUDs (copper and Mirena) cause a constant state of inflammation in the body. And the Pill can have some very serious side effects. I think women are often afraid to discuss these because they think "everyone takes it and I'm the only one who has this problem." The author also touched on the use of the Pill to treat all kinds of "female problems" like acne, heavy periods, irregular periods, etc, and how using the Pill only covers up the problem instead of actually treating it. A woman's cycle is a primary window into her whole body health. Tricking your body with fake periods and a fake hormone cycle can cover up health--and especially fertility--problems. Overall, there was plenty in this book I disagreed with, but plenty of food for thought mixed in.