This God--His way is perfect; the word of the Lord proves true; He is a shield for all those who take refuge in Him. Psalm 18:30
What a joyful surprise to learn we were expecting an Easter baby (little Jellybean until we know the baby's gender)! After our two miscarriages, we always hold our breath for the first several weeks. Morning sickness set in strong at five weeks, and at six weeks we saw that beautiful heartbeat. At our nine week ultrasound we still saw that tiny heart beating strong, but our doctor gave us some heartbreaking news that was confirmed with a visit to a specialist this week. For reasons unknown to us and the medical people, but not unknown to God, the baby's brain has not formed properly. Baby's condition is not the "classic" anencephaly, but is similar. The specialist called it cranio something or other. But in medical terms it means "incompatible with life." Both my regular ob and the specialist told us that while a pregnancy loss is always possible at any stage, typically the pregnancy proceeds normally and to term, but our baby is expected to live only a few minutes to a couple of days, if baby survives the birth. Of course we are heartbroken. There really aren't any words.
Would you pray with us? Many of you already know our news and have been praying with us, and we are so thankful for you. Our family and friends and sweet church community loves us so well, and they are showing us what it means to bear one another's burdens. Pray for peace and comfort and wisdom as we seek to celebrate life yet plan for death. And pray for wisdom when we talk with our children in the next few weeks. They do not know anything about the pregnancy yet. I'm sure I'll have many more thoughts to share later. We know that God has always been faithful, and He will be again.
